Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Perspective

If your looking for Humor please skip reading this post.


I am little off today.. Not because the Twins didn't play and not because Hoops wasn't on.. I just need to figure out a way get healthy which includes losing a ton of weight.. I know these sound like excuses but I am just not motivated to work out or eat less.. I really don't need a new diet other than eating less on every meal because I do eat the right stuff its just that I eat too much of it. I have so many things that I enjoy doing in my life I just hate taking time away from them to work out.. I am not one of those people that is motivated and wake up early in the morning and go running. When I run everything on my body hurts starting with my feet.. Which I think would be better if I wasn't so damn heavy.. I just think it is so sad that I really have to get healthy or I will die and I won't do it.. I laugh about it but really with my family history each day I stay this way I am cutting time off my life.. I know I come off as a negative pessimistic SOB but I really like living.

I am starting to have the same symptoms that my brother had when his health started to fail him (My wife has even noticed not good).. I wonder if I am destined for the same fate. I think that I am is worse, I know what can happen and I don't do anything about it. Why am I such an idiot.. I am really cutting my veins open here but I need to do everything I can to change who I unfortunatelyley I don't think I have an eating disorder I think it is case of loving to eat and when something is good more has to be better.. Well that is pretty depressing I am not sure why I post this or anything I post but I just feel better after I do.

If I don't figure out a way to change who I am I will die..
On that note HeavyD out..